Perfectly Unperfect

"This is not some contest--just do your best, 'cause nobody's perfect!" - Shania Twain, What a Way to Wanna Be

What is the big deal at being perfect?

What does perfect mean anyway? That you're a size 2? That you have Jimmy Choos shoes? That your bag is a real Prada? That you're smart and popular with an awesome boyfriend?

Excuse me, but just because I'm an definitly not a size two, I have never even heard of Jimmy Choos until a couple of weeks ago, I would die if I had to pay $300 for a purse, and I never had a boyfriend, does that mean I am not perfect? Does being over a size 10 mean I have to get looked at? Does that mean I have to rediculed everywhere I go?

NO! No one is perfect! So why do maganizes have it that if your not a size two then you are just crazy? Being a size two is hard for some people, for a lot of different reasons. But that's not my point.

My point is this, why should I pretend to be prefect, because, in the end, someone isn't going to like the way I dress, or how I cut my hair. Why do we mold ourselves into someone else? Who the hell are we trying to impress?

So, I'm just going to say it. I am not perfect! I am far from it! I'm a dork, and I am proud. I love to read. I have almost every Billy Joel song on my MP3. My favorite actor is a 48-year-old man no one has ever heard of. One time, I stayed up till two in the morning to watch him in a television show. I love Wicked so much that I'm basically buying anything that has to with Wicked or the Wicked Witch. I have watched the movie Rent every night this week. I have exactly one best friend. I would rather spend time with my family than party. Actually, I hate partying. The music is always too loud and it's usually way too crowded. I have never been kissed. I never had a boyfriend. I am a hopeless romantic. I went to a Catholic elementary school, an all girls Catholic high school, and a Catholic college, and I'm Lutheren. I don't really pay attention to how my hair looks; sometimes I forget to brush it in the morning. I don't know if I'm positive I want to be a teacher. I may want to be something else. I love writing fanfiction. Though I'm a Mets fan, I find baseball to be boring. My favorite show is The West Wing and it's been off the air for two years. Plus, it's a show about politics, and I hate politics. I want to try new things, but I'm too afraid to leave my comfort zone. I want to be crazy and daring. I want to do things now, and worry about the consequences later.

I want to live.